I’m finally ready after 41 pages of private journalling. Working through my feelings, thoughts, emotions. I’m feeling at peace, my mind is knowing the truth of it and it feels right in my soul. Now I’m just waiting for my heart to catch up. The marriage we have is over. We have been separated as of last Tuesday. I’m on day 7 and I’m getting stronger each day. I’ve been 4 days without caffeine in my system. I’ve walked every day for the last 3 days. I am rediscovering who I am, what is important to me, awakening myself from a long deep sleep. I am reconnecting with myself as a woman and not just a mother and a wife. What the future holds, I don’t know. I am living mindfully, living in the moment. Feeling music in my soul after way too long, dancing with my kids, singing with my kids. Just being me.