I’ve realized over the last week that I had shut down the part of me that was a woman. For years, I’ve been a mother and a wife and the woman part of me was shut down. I know why now for various complex reasons. It seems so obvious now but I realize I wasn’t a whole person with just the two factors. I’ve fought for woman’s issues for a long time but ignored the woman in me. Feeling like a woman again has made me feel more alive, more whole in a long time. I ‘m just sad it took a crisis for me to see it. Or maybe I should be grateful. The chinese say that crisis has two meanings, danger and opportunity. I can look at this as an opportunity to reconnect with myself. An opportunity to reconnect with life, with friends, with family.

I’m 6 days with no caffeine in my body, drinking lots of water. Still living mindfully.Living with an open heart. Being the person I’m meant to be.