I installed a screen saver on my computer the other day that has inspirational thoughts. They are perfect for helping to keep me aware. One of the quotes on it today that came up was this;

“People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates.” Thomas Szasz

I realized that’s what I am doing, creating myself. Not some brand new person, but a better me. A more aware me, an awakened me. Why is it that it takes something drastic for us to learn to create the real self. When my mother was diagnosed with cancer, she became a better person. She admitted it herself that cancer was the best thing and worst thing that had ever happened to her. It made her re-evaluate life. She learned to live mindfully, living in the moment. I watched her change, watched her grow, yet I did not learn from that experience. It took my own experience for me to grow.