The xmas festivities are starting and I’m still somewhat in denial that it is December. Both Bram and Alec have xmas concerts/parties on Friday. Then there’s something every week right up until xmas. We’ve got our tree decorated, built a gingerbread train (pictures coming), that we are taking to my uncle in York Manor. I’ve got about half the xmas shopping completed. But I don’t feel it yet. I just don’t feel like it’s xmas time. I think it’s because I’ve been so busy working and I haven’t got out much (there’s an understatement, lol).

The really good news though is that Kevin (my ex for new readers) offered to have me keep the kids all xmas day. Typically he takes them for xmas eve, brings them back at bedtime. They stay with me till about 1:00 pm on xmas day till they go with Kevin to his parent’s house for xmas dinner. But this year the kids will stay with me all day and go to Kevin on boxing day. I’m excited about it as it means more time to relax and watch the kids play with their toys.

And yes, I confess, it wasn’t overly appealing to think about spending the rest of xmas by myself. I’ve thought about that a lot this xmas. Because up until the change of plans, I’d been feeling a bit bummed out about it. It also made me think about all the other people who spend xmas alone. Those like myself that have family scattered too far & wide to visit and those who don’t have a significant other or children to spend the day with them. Christmas is a time of joy in many ways, but I know an awful lot of people that it brings up painful memories at times. However, for me, Christmas is seeing it through the eyes of Alec & Bram and I’m grateful to be spending the day with them:)