Andrea’s post prompted me to finally write this post. There have been several posts on different blogs over the last couple months that have addressed different weight issues. I’m overweight and have been increasingly so over the last 10 years. I’ve gained 50 lbs in the last 10 years and even then I could have stood to have lost 10-15 lbs. Amazingly enough, I’ve never really dieted. When Alec was a baby we made conscious choices to change the way we eat ,making healthy choices. For the most part, we’ve stuck with that, we stopped eating red meat, ate mostly whole grain, unrefined foods. Did I lose weight? Nope, well maybe 10 lbs. Reasons? Well, no exercise at all and also at supper time a tendency to eat too big a helping.

Am I unhappy with my weight? I would like to be a healthier weight. I haven’t been motivated enough until recently when I’ve started to experience more aches and pains from being out of shape. Andrea hit it on the head though when she said that she “wanted her outside to match her inside”. That really resonated with me. I am happy with the inside me. I can’t relate to the women on Dr. Phil’s weight loss challenge. In fact, I think part of the problem is that I need to start really seeing the outside of me and stop thinking of myself as just the inside me. I still see myself as the jock I was that played competitive sports right through college. When I have sweat pants, t-shirt and sneakers on, I “feel” like it’s still the athletic me. Except if I actually tried to run down a basketball court, I’d wake up pretty quick. I’m always startled when people treat me differently because of my weight because sometimes I forget that I am that overweight person.

I need to make exercise a priority and I don’t. I find time for all kinds of other events, workshops, meetings, etc. of things that interest me but I never find time for exercise. Part of it is because I can’t stand exercise for the sake of exercise. I like sports, I like the social aspect of it. I’ve been thinking of asking one of my neighbors if she would like to walk in the evenings.

I would like others to see the me that I feel I am and not the me that they think I am. How many of you truly reflect the inside you on the outside?

Yesterday I went walking with Stacy at French Fort Cove. It was really chilly but I felt really good after a walk. The fresh air was fabulous. I’m going to start walking on Tuesdays and Wednesdays depending on the weather during Kevin’s lunch hour so he can take the kids, anyone want to walk with me?

Warning:
My blog could be wanky at times as I follow my path to discovery, to my reconnection with myself.

Heading off to Calgary in a few weeks to see my sister. I can’t wait. We’re going to take Alec to the Royal Tyrell Museum, he’ll love it, dinosaur mania.

These have been my quotes for the week in my private journalling

?Who I am is not who I used to be. But who I am is all of who I used to be.? Iyanla

?we are given one life, and the decision is ours whether to wait for circumstances to make up our mind, or whether to act, and in acting, to live.? Omar Nelson Bradley.

?Start the day with love? means that when you wake up in the morning, you open your heart and remind yourself of your intent to be loving in every aspect of your life?

?Live the day with love? means that your choices and actions stem from your decision to be loving, patient, kind and gentle.?

I knew once I quit the pop habit, I would start to lose some weight. Pop is nasty stuff and I have used it as my coffee habit for years. To drink to get that fix, to stay up late, get energy, etc. I don’t like coffee so it was my replacement. I’ve been drinking about 2 L water/day and I feel so much better. Combined with the little bit of walking I am doing, I know I will lose weight easily in the beginning. I’m also doing much better about not taking that second helping of food. I’ve never believed in dieting, just healthy eating, proper portions and exercise. I only ever did one of the three. Now I am combining all three and over the last 12 days I have lost 7 lbs. I know it will slow down big time soon and then I will have to increase my exercise level. My goal is 1lb/week. I have about 50 lbs to lose so this time next year, I should be in awesome shape.

ok, people I need some help here. I’ve searched the internet and there’s so much out there, I can’t seem to narrow it down to what I need. I want exercises that I can do at home, for strength building and toning. I can’t afford to join a gym, can’t afford to buy any home exercise equipment of any kind. So, I have to make do with me and whatever happens to be around the house. I read that water bottles can be used for weights. Does anyone know of an internet site that has a plan for a workout at home?

I’m a bit sore today. I went for a brisk walk at French Fort Cove this morning and I’ve been doing exercises at home. My legs are feeling a bit tight. The good news is the weight is definitely dropping.

Found this quote that I liked;
We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is awaiting us…. The old skin has to be shed before the new one is to come.
—Joseph Campbell

We’re leaving for Calgary on Wednesday. I can’t wait. We’ll be spending 2 weeks with my sister’s family. I will see my nephew Anton who is 2. Bram and him will have a lot of fun.